The times that are the worst are when I wake up and right before I sleep. For now, I've stopped sobbing at random times during the day and the pain that was once really sharp is now slowly becoming a dull ache in my chest. It's like I have a hollow in my heart where you used to be that is just slowly healing.
I can't stop referring to you as my boyfriend in my brain, which clearly needs re-wiring. Sometimes I wonder if you feel the same way too. I just wish that I meant enough to you to consider an alternative, although I have no right to demand that of you. For now, I just miss you.
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