Funny how fast the anger fades when you think about things logically. Similarly, it's almost funny how anger always fades back into sadness. Not being his girlfriend means that I no longer have a right to expect that he will reply to every single thing that I send him, that he will not always talk to me every day, that he will not talk to me when I see him online. It's almost ironic. When we were going out, I would never reply, never care if he didn't. And now it seems almost the opposite; because now I am just hanging on for any sign from him.
I am ashamed to say that I hope that he is as sad as I am. Definitely selfish. But it reassures me also because otherwise I am left to believe that even after two years, I am now nothing to him. And for that, I am sorry.
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