I know that loving is not synonymous with liking. But somehow, it feels like there's a bigger void, a stronger ache. I suppose in a way, we hadn't really broken up emotionally. But I guess you could say that we're actually fully broken up now.
I wonder if it was a good thing that I managed to coax it out of him. Because on one hand, it helps me to move on. But on the other hand, I have to deal with the inevitable withdrawal period that occurs after every time I see him, with this added burden.
Was it better to hear it from him in person though? I think so. At least I didn't have to find out through some other way and at least I wasn't led on... because his actions this trip conveyed otherwise.
And what have I learnt? That I should learn from the last visit and not crowd him in. In a way, I feel that I now have even less reason to approach him because I don't know what he feels.
because... you know you said forever...
...still i am passing through
- 'Too Late For Lovers', Gin Wigmore
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