I am a bitch. And I need to stop playing with people's emotions.


But it makes me think. What if I had met him first? Would I have gone out with him instead? Which means... did I only go out with him because he came along first? I know I love him... but I know definitely that love came much further down the track. But did I only pick him because I was simply curious and he was the first person with a Y chromosome to show interest?

These are thoughts which I do not wish to dwell on.