#feelinggood

Yesterday, I had to use my Cantonese in a consultation - albeit a painful one, but at least I was semi-useful to the cute neurologist. Today, got a provisional diagnosis right when said neurologist asked what I thought could be wrong with the patient. As my (male) partner said quite drily when I told him about my crush on said neurologist, "You're only into consultants because of the power and money. Oh, and the intelligence."

Ah, hospital life. So much eye candy.

Also, got to watch two (successful) ERCPs and a lipoma removal. Life is good.

#lastday

Took bloods off a gentleman who went as far to say that he didn't feel a thing. And at the risk of sounding like a complete douchebag, the stethoscope with all its weight hanging around my neck (which I suppose feels like a millstone of responsibility to the qualified) feels oh so right. Also, it keeps me exempt from toileting patients. Which is a plus.

I didn't want it to be my last day on the wards. Being a medical student is the tops.

#thisisawesome

Did a cannula. And a patient for the first time said 'dromedary' as an answer for one of the MOCA questions.

Life is good.

#wail

Why, why, why Walker and Hall? WHERE IS THE ROSE GOLD?! I want the rose gold :(

#ALM

There are some days that I love being a medical student. Today was one such day. It makes the drudgery of ELM worth it.

I don't want next week to be my last week on the ward with this team.

#sexism

Ah, first day on the wards and within an hour, I get called as a nurse by a patient, even though I've been introduced to him as a medical student.

#thoughts

Ah, when did we all start striving towards mediocrity? I suppose there will always be the ones amongst us who are shooting stars, while the rest of us are content to sit in the background to make up the tapestry of night. Pride is a sin. But when is laziness a sin too? And what is true happiness? Is it being content with just enough?

Stupid A. Stupid, stupid A.

And medicine! You shatter such illusions. I don't know how they manage to do it, but they've taken a group of potentially bright individuals and haphazardly smooshed (I actually can't think of a better word) us together and so by the end, they end up churning out mediocre doctors who are satisfied with 'just enough'. Why would anyone bother trying when there's simply no point in trying?

Maybe it's four weeks of ACS talking, maybe it's the medical school here. But I have lost the love. Here's hoping that starting my first clinical attachment will cure me.