#barepassplsplspls

That was hands down, the most horrible exam I have ever sat in my entire life. I was certain for maybe half (if I'm lucky) of the questions. The other half I was just barely keeping it together because I just wanted to run out of the histology lab screaming blue murder. Ncjdndkdishfirnxufnrownturn 

#amused

Granted, we should all emerge from our degree being able to teach others. But a examiner with only one year's worth of experience? And one year's experience as an intern pharmacist? People aren't allowed to be preceptors unless they've had at least two years experience working as a pharmacist. And yes, third and fourth year pharmacy students don't really know their head from their arse, but still!!!

I am both bemused and amused. 

#it'sbeenagoodday

1. bullshitted my way through the cancer section of the exam. bullshit was correct.
2. being published. for realsies.
3. finished the day with a cider.

#FOURMOREDAYS

Can't believed i signed up for another four years of study. Oh no - it's meant to be lifelong learning. jfdklfkjlfd. Oddly though, as soon as i finish studying for these exams, surfing the internet will not be nearly as entertaining.

Also amusing thought: everyone is going to use the word 'fungating' to describe an adenocarcinoma of the colon if that pops up in our SAQ exam tomorrow. Just like how everyone said that a 'hostile uterus' was a totally legit reason for IVF back in fourth year - a term which bamboozled our ethics tutor because she had never heard of such a term before. Cheers, Meredith Grey. 

#feelinghopeful

So no callback email to resit my OSCE. Yusssss. Except i did get a minor panic attack when i saw the 'new message received' icon on my email inbox. Thanks medical school for notifying me that emails have already gone out. But i was probably satisfied with knowing that already from Moodle.

... except i maaaybe want to resit so i can make sure i actually own it this time around. Gah. Yesterday, i just wanted to pass. Today we want PDs all round, yespleaseandthankyou. Can't make up my bloody mind. 

Also, immense fun. A great majority of the SAQ exam today was pharmacology. See you little shits, stop belittling pharmacists; quote "What are pharmacists good for? They just stand around the whole day." unquote.

This would be my answer after today: Did you own the pharmacology part of the exam? Quivering in your little socks over what type of antihypertensive cilazapril is. Oh, gee. Kinda knew that from um... being a pharmacist. 

#twasthenightbeforeosce

and i am so glad that i have a patient E. who is ready and willing to answer every single stupid question i have. i need to make sure that i am living with him come fifth year exams. it is only second year exams and i am shitting my pants. i don't think i was even this scared for my pharmacy registration exam. difference being: i actually have to touch patients. fjkdfajkfdsakjldfajkldfasljkdaflkjdfaljk

#overit

i'm going over material for the umpteenth time. and at this point, i don't actually care enough to memorise the tiny weeny details because i'm so over it. the depressing thing is that i have to reread shit because it's a full year paper and so i will inevitably come across things at a later date that i will realise was the answer to some stupid question that i could not answer during an earlier exam moangripemoangrumblegripegripe

except even that is not enough motivation. i'm like oh heeeeeeey, i think i know everything. except i don't. BECAUSE THIS IS BLOODY MEDICINE AND YOU CAN'T BLOODY KNOW EVERYTHING.